My MiND....

I realized that the mind is a very powerful tool and at the same time it is the weakest too..
Recently a lot of things have happened to me, from injuries to near nervous break down(not really breakdown)....
below illustrates the few events...

i found out last week that i might need to have surgery on my shoulder, i felt lost and shock because of the many implication that will go along with it(financally, social and work)... and the big ass injection the doc gave me left me speechless the rest of the day(due to post injection shock)

and on saturday, at the AGM where i should have kept my mouth shut, i had just simply had to raise my arm unknowingly confuse the crowd ...(that moment made me sweat even in a 16 degree room)

the other evening when i was with a lady friend at starbucks, my friends had to be at the rite place at the rite time to catch me redhanded with her...
they had tried calling me earlier but i didnt hear my phone ring as it was put to silent mode... so they came up to us and said hi....i felt guilty coz i didnt pick up the phone...later that evening i met up with them and i just smiled..

and this morning i had a dream of being punished by army officers for being late for work and it was a nasty dream...

all this being said, i look into myself and introspectively feel that i have a weak mind...the little things in life can so profoundly afffect me and it seems that eventhough i think i am alrite, i feel that it is somehow not enough... i need to keep my feelings in check and not be so excited or nervous so easily.. but how does one forge a mind that can control all these feelings.. i am still looking for an answer..