Battle with my Inner Demons

I woke up this morning feeling lost.... i had a dream last nite which rendered me helpless and fighting for my very existence in a make belive world which i have created Sub-consiously.

In this particularly, i remember being conered by 3 men whoose faces i couldnt remember.. they attacked me and rob me of all things... the first man distracted me while the 2nd one was coming in close. I span round facing the 2nd intruder and with all might i shot at a palm struck to his solar plexis(dont know the spelling, its 2 inches below the ribs, smack in the centre of the body), like the way i was thought in The Art, but i just stood there like a rock, impenetrable, i stood there shocked by wat had happened. A struck there would have knock the wind out of anyone. but the only wind was his laughter. Before i could think of the next move, i felt lost and helpless. Fear griped me, tightening my lungs, i lost my 'BALANCE' and couldnt get it back... That is when all 3 men started closing in, i kicked and tried to fight my way out but to no use...

i woke up in bed with the fan blowing againest my face, heart pounding and that bitter taste of defeat... defeat to my very own demons, demons which i have created and demons i will have to face in the future.. and in the next round i only hope that i have the will to do better... and at the mean time i need to forge a stronger mind.... but where did this demons come from.....