Half-Marathon training

i GOt up really early this morning for my appointment with my camp physio... i had to do a series of gym exerises followed by heat treatment .... i had made a promise to myself last nite that i would train mu running today... Today would be my first marathon training....

so after the physio session at 1015am.. with the sun was blazing and the temperature at ard 30 -32 degrees..... i told myself i must do 4 rounds ard camp.. (4rds = 6 km).... and i suddenedly recall the last time i ran more the 5 km was 2 yrs ago.... but i was determined to do it today....

the first 2 rds was alrite ... i could stillmaintain my pace and breathing, but when it came to the 3rd round ... i started to break... mentally and physically... i was giving myself alot of nonsense excuses to stop...

asking myself why train so hard ...
What do u wanna achive runing so hard
why torture yourself
my god my legs are killing me ...
stop already nobody is looking u can stop

by the time i hit the 3 1/2 rd, my legs were feeling the pain of lactic acid build up... i thopught to mysef "god damn it!! i am really out of shape"... still i pressed on... came the 4th rd i was already dying.... i started to pick up the pace ... i told myself the faster i ran the faster i complete the 4 rds.... my god i was sooo worng....

picking up the pace made my legs cry in pain, my legs were screaming to my mind to stop and rest... but i told myself its all in the mind... if my mind dont let my body to stop, i wont stop... so carried on and managed to complete the 4 rds..

This first training will be one of the many training that i would have to endure... i have alot of work cut out for me in the next 3 months.. i need to run 3 times a week and each week the distance for endurance training would have to increase.. i hope that i can manage 21 km 2 weeks before the actual half marathon... I know it sounds Impossible... but i must keep think Immpossible is NOThing ... damn this is really tough....