Engagment party

Yesterday i went to suresh ROM held at quality hotel down at balistier rd.... it was a traditional indian engagment cum ROM..and next year this time they will be holding the indian wedding.. this was my first time attending a indian engagment function and it was an eye opener... afew of my friends were there too and we were happy to see him settle down...it was a love marrige...

but it seems that alot of my indian friends will be settling for a match makin/arrange marrige thingy... set up by their parnets or relatives... and just last week afew of my friends had proposals.. their parnets are worried that their sons are getting old and want to see them get married soon... my god.... in the 21st century and ppl are stil doing that....

i ask afew of my friends would they go for match making setup by their relatives.... and to my surprise they told me that they wouldnt mind but not at the moment coz of their career..

they tell me its not like they will get married stright away after meeting the girl .. they'll just date a while and see weather it will hit it off or not...

mind u... my friends are good looking average joes with style.. and it seems they are too busy to find or meet one.. maybe its because of the job they are in which unables them to meet ppl.. or they're jsut not brothered at the mean time...

well having said so much.. i belive arrange meetings ispractical... i mean arrage marriages or match making.. ppl these days are so busy with work that they dont find time to meet girls and guys... thats y there is friendster, wholivesnearyou and other match making or friend finding services are popping out every where... ppl are actively praticipating in it... they wanna meet more ppl but sometimes they meet so many ppl they dont know who or wat they are looking for...

as i have said before "u dont go looking for love, love will look for u" as for me i am still thinking abt arrange marrages or match making .. my relatives have been asking my mom weather i have a gf or not.. and when they heard that i am still single they ask if i wanted to know someone.... hahhahah ... wat is happening to my friends is happening to me now... but i dont think i will go for it for the time being... in future who knows.. but definately not at in the near future.....

Male subject (and thoughts on time)

Name of male subject : William Lim
Sex : Male
Age : 25
Weight : 165 pounds / 77 kgs
Height : 5ft 11 / 1.78m
BMI : 24.3
2.4km time : 9.38 min
chest: still workin on it (lookin good hahahaha)
waist: still maintaining ok even after the weight gain
hips : (who cars abt the hips)
shoulders: very broad hahha its true ppl say one hahahahha

These are the the stats of male subject(me) training for half marathon.

As i look as these stats i found out the the only thing that has not changed in the past 8 -10 yrs is my height... every thing else has incresed.. 2 yrs ago my weight was ard 70 -72 kgs and look at me now i am 77 kgs going to 78... but i dont look at all that different ... those extra pounds has slowed my 2.4 timing from at fast 9.25 to a slower 9.38 .. i know i know ... its not much of a difference... but that 13 secs more is alot...

As i have previously mentioned i am abt the change all these... all within a time frame of 12 -15 weeks... on dec 4 weather my leave is approve or not... i will go for the standard charter half marathon...

The determination has not slowed down .. i am still hype abt this training i have set myself to do... with motivation from my family and friends (some who are surprise becoz i hate to run unless its in a game basketball).. i have found a certain accomplishment but pushing myself to run further and faster... each training brings the demons out of me.. demons who keep slowing me mental and physically.. i had a great time fighting them back but it has taken a toll on my body...

Last Wednesday was my first mid distance run.. the following day, while i was working.. i flet the full force of fatigue... my legs were aching from the run, my upper body fromt the gym session at the physio.. it was a feeling i keep telling myself that i would have to endure for the next 12 -15 weeks .. and the only time i can recover would be during the weekends... that means 5 days a week training..

3 days aweek of running
2 days of conditioning and strenghtening
2 days rest

Piled on top of my training would be work, studies and aikido.. i have been thinking hard of how i should cope with all these.. but its no big hustle ....

ppl keep saying they dont have enough time...
but i say u make time for things ..
u control how u spend your time...
and how wisely u spend it ...


i know that sometimes things just happen now and then but there is no reason for not making up for lost time...

Half-Marathon training

i GOt up really early this morning for my appointment with my camp physio... i had to do a series of gym exerises followed by heat treatment .... i had made a promise to myself last nite that i would train mu running today... Today would be my first marathon training....

so after the physio session at 1015am.. with the sun was blazing and the temperature at ard 30 -32 degrees..... i told myself i must do 4 rounds ard camp.. (4rds = 6 km).... and i suddenedly recall the last time i ran more the 5 km was 2 yrs ago.... but i was determined to do it today....

the first 2 rds was alrite ... i could stillmaintain my pace and breathing, but when it came to the 3rd round ... i started to break... mentally and physically... i was giving myself alot of nonsense excuses to stop...

asking myself why train so hard ...
What do u wanna achive runing so hard
why torture yourself
my god my legs are killing me ...
stop already nobody is looking u can stop

by the time i hit the 3 1/2 rd, my legs were feeling the pain of lactic acid build up... i thopught to mysef "god damn it!! i am really out of shape"... still i pressed on... came the 4th rd i was already dying.... i started to pick up the pace ... i told myself the faster i ran the faster i complete the 4 rds.... my god i was sooo worng....

picking up the pace made my legs cry in pain, my legs were screaming to my mind to stop and rest... but i told myself its all in the mind... if my mind dont let my body to stop, i wont stop... so carried on and managed to complete the 4 rds..

This first training will be one of the many training that i would have to endure... i have alot of work cut out for me in the next 3 months.. i need to run 3 times a week and each week the distance for endurance training would have to increase.. i hope that i can manage 21 km 2 weeks before the actual half marathon... I know it sounds Impossible... but i must keep think Immpossible is NOThing ... damn this is really tough....

Impossible

IMPOSSIBLE IS JUST A BIG WORD THROWN AROUND BY SMALL MEN

WHO FIND IT EASIER TO LIVE IN THE WORLD T. HEY HAVE BEEN GIVEN

THAN TO EXPLORE THE POWER THEY HAVE TO CHANGE IT

IMPOSSIBLE IS NOT A FACT.

IT'S AN OPINION.

IMPOSSIBLE IS NOT A DECLARATION.

IT'S A DARE.

IMPOSSIBLE IS POTENTIAL.

IMPOSSIBLE IS TEMPORARY.

IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING.

Well studying at BK this evening i remembered Guna telling me abt a Standard Chartered Marathon this 4th Dec ... so I picked up my phone and msg Jong(his 39 this year i think) and ask if he was participating and that if i could join him......

and if he is, which category will he be joining (21km or the 42 km).. he told me he'll going for the 42km and i was like what the hell ??!!! i cant do 42 km, i have never ran 21km before .... and he told me

"if u dont try, u will never know if u can make it or not."

and it struck me "Impossible is just a word" and "Impossible is nothing"

All my life i have been telling myself that i cant do this or that ... i cant achcvie this or that.. well all that is abt to change.. i am awnt to change and i will not let the word "Impossible" dictate my life...

Becoz of ppl like Jong and mike who are in their late 30s.. i am motivated to push myself to do things that i have onli dreamt of.. i want to do something now and when i look back... i can tell myself i did it.. and i made the effort to explore the potential that i have...

i have i have less then 12 weeks to prepare myself.. and i intend to do it by hook or by crook.. i want to live like "impossible is nothing".....

Hunger around the world..

After studying at amk Macdonalds... I had my supper at jalan kayu with a few close friends... we were chatting abt our future plans and the usual stuff.. abt y arent u getting a girl or whens your arranged marriage gonna happen.. after a while we all went back home .. and i sit infront of my computer .. surfing and .....

i saw alot of disturbing things on Msn homepage regarding "the week in pictures" i saw pictures of straving children in africa, drought in spain, flooding in South korea, THe war in Iraq, the pullout of Gaza, firemen fighting bush fire Arizona, funerals of soldiers and gang wars in brazil jail house.... i thought to myself...

what the hell is happening to the world???

Why are there so many poor countries that cant afford to feed its ppl??

Why the rich nations not helping them ?

Why is the world climate changing for the worst? (i know its becoz of green house effect)

Why is the War still raging in Iraq?

Why is it man of different religon and race unable to co-exist with each other??

Alot of ppl live in denial.. denial of the things thats is happening ard the world.. we live in confinement.. and that everything is alrite.... with changing times like this.. we cannot ignore the grusome facts that is constantly happening to every one.. but then who am i to tell u what we should do to help... the leaders of the world are all talking but doing nothing .. they are concern of political power and economic growth for their own nations... it is also becoz of them that we can have the life we have own... i am grateful to them but then at the back of my head i ask y..... what is happening to the world.. y cant human kind of different religon, race, colour, langague live harmonously together....... building a eden for everyone to live in..... even with answers to my qs... i cannot change the world ... i am but onli one .....

My Market Value

There is a time in a MANs life that he expericene the pains of ageing (HAHAHA)...the sudden growth of white hair (i dont have any k), the extra luggage he carrys around his waist and the finer lines of his face...This IS Wat call an aging man ... damn it!!! why do we have to grow old!! hahahah well i am bless once again with good genes as i look like the same when i was 21. thats when ppl kept commenting that i looked older... (mmm is that good or bad)...

but there is one thing u ladies must understand and thats is...


WE MEN are like Wine, WE AGE with GRace
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hahahha... Well i hope that is for my case... as i was saying market value...
i constantly ask myself why do men constantly exerise? as for me .. i do exerise alot and it is the notion of keeping healthy and keeping the dreaded extra pounds on the waist away...

and it suddenedly hit me ... i came to a revelation.. mmm revelation seems to strong a word... lets use REVELATION (muahahah)... men (well not all but most) are a vain lot ... but there is a reason to this...

It is because of MARKET VALUE... u opposite sex (perferably ladies) out there.. touch your heart (deep deep) and ask yourselves: do u want a loft, a guy who doesnt take care of himself, man with outragous LOVE handles and a united kingdom called beer belly, doesnt know how to dress and all that horrid things u can think of ...

OR u want that mean looking, sex defying, six pecks to play with .. ok i am gonna cut the crap.. i meant man with an average body not too fit but just nice. a body u can appriecate (in ways that are unimaginable hehehehhe )...

well i dont really know the answers onli u can tell me (so pls leave your comments)

I think the reason y men exerise is because they want to improve their market value ... its simple fact... i think.... WIth a better market value, i guess men can in a way get certain things in life for example, win a male hunk model search (damn that icelandic thai guy from the next male model.. girls cant stop talking abt him).... they stand a better chance in life and in love... well i am a guy and i think thats basically the reason y...

for me i work out to stay healthy and hope to push my body to limits that i never knew existed.... ITs the truth... reallly!!!! trust me in this...i want to do that split i always wanted to do eventhough i am alrady 25.. i want to do that 21 km marthton at least once in my life.. do a triatha of 1.5km swim, 20km cycle and 10 km run..(training unreligously for it hahaha), do wake boarding, rock climbing and all that physical demanding sports....i just want to make full use of my body while its still young and do all the things it can still do...

truth be told, there is some truth to wat i said just now (abt attracting) .. i hope that stand a better chance.........................

dreams and timing

It is said that the greatest enemy that one could have is themselves... i ponder on this notion and came to a certain understanding... the understanding that it is true that my greatest enemy is myself ... and that i have set limits to myself, claiming that i cannot do certain things in life. But this is not true. though i have in fact clipped my very own wings.. wings that could have been able to bring me to new heights. i am still trying hard to come out off this very cage i have put myself into. i am struggling and at times i feel lost..

Last nite i had a dream... a dream of lost love.. a dream that was so real to me that i woke up remembering the details...this dream is no ordinary dream to me, though there maybe others who have experience the realtiy of my dreams.. the feelings of this dreams still linger in my heart and i feel the urge to put them into writing...

this dream is abt losing some one u admire and long for ... losing that "one" to another person ... abt missing chances of making things happen, to make things right ... because of setting limits by saying "i am out of her league"... then finally realising that there was something going on but have failed to notice it... to me this dream was a nightmare, it is worst then feeling scared .. it is a story that i must try to learn from... a story that i must not let it materialize...

i should seek and pursue not wait and hope... it is a lesson i hope to learn ... in the end of the day it is always abt "timing"....